Susheela Raman - Amba

Liposomal Antibiotics

I contracted an unknown protozoa parasite that evokes a very strong immune reaction including a  hyper secretion of adrenal hormones (Cushing's) that went undiagnosed for a long time until I used a PCR based test.   Parasites are difficult to diagnose using conventional testing methods (microscopy) and with the advent of PCR testing, it is now much easier to get a diagnosis. 

I have been forced to treat myself since doctors refused to give me antibiotics.   With that I have had to learn the ins and outs about antibiotic therapy which includes prescription and herbal based ones.  I was able to achieve die off with the use of Nitazoxanide with Paromomycin, a previous therapy using Caprylic Acid and the most recent one using Lactoferrin.  

It was my original belief that biofilms were to blame solely for the resistance phases but further reading revealed the antibiotic resistance nature of some pathogens.   There are 3 possibilities of antibiotic resistance with the most common using efflux pumps.   These pathogens that use this are able to detect the substance that is killing them then form of 'fingerprint' of that molecule in their memory.  When the molecule is reintroduced, the organism simply pumps that out of their cell thus saving them from destruction. 


I have looked extensively at the use of herbal complexes that could stop this efflux activity.  Of course I am forced to look at herbal based since I am unable to obtain pharmaceutical substances.   I extracted herbal complexes using 80% vodka since alcohol extracts are more viable to pull out the substances.  I began to put the extract into hot water to form a tea of sorts and added 99% DMSO since evidence shows that DMSO will potentiate any substance.   I was able to see improvement but this stopped as I went back into an inflammatory mode. 

I have researched the use of lipsomal compounds to deliver substances, and the liposomal approach is excellent for a number of reasons to do this.   I have used various substances such as Vitamin C, turmeric etc to make my own liposomal compounds.   This can be accomplished easily using a $50 ultrasonic cleaner, lecithin granules and the substance you want to make into the lipsome. 

I read extensively on using antibiotics in the liposomal form and studies have shown improved penetration, furthermore with lipsomal forms, less of the substance can be used while achieving a better kill rate.   Reduced amounts equates to lower toxicity for the liver and kidneys. 

I have been making a liposome compound of the herbal extract and have been achieving satisfactory results.   The herbs I am currently using are Cubeb peppercorns, paprika, andrographis and black seed.   I have another brew in extract that includes mango, papaya and guava leaves plus some of the above.   I am not currently using this formula.   These herbs have been shown to stop the efflux pumps.   I will continue to update this blog with any relevant findings I come across.

Azam Ali Elysium - Endless Reverie

Mark Isham - The Mist Soundtrack

Artistic works of Jane Hargrave

Selected works of Jane Hargrave, please see her site at janehargrave.com/

Dark Night of the Soul

The Dark Night of the Soul is a poem written by St. John of the Cross, a mystic from the 1500's.   John was born in an era in which it was popular among the religious to seek the supernatural, however John cautioned his contemporaries  against seeking God just for the supernatural things but rather should seek him for the union.  That journey of union was about ridding our attachments for the world and seeking only the union.   It was John's belief that God allowed those to suffer the dark night of the soul in order to rise to ascent with God (union).  

John Michael Talbot wrote this song to the poem.   It is rather dark so perhaps it is not for you.  

Rachel's Water

An amazing story of Rachel Beckwith whose efforts raised over 1 million dollars to provide clean water.  Charitywater.org

Disabled

I consider myself disabled, not as bad as I once was but nevertheless am still.   I can no longer do the things I once was capable of like sports or working a professional level job like I once did.   Something happens in the psyche when you consider this but it is a fact but not just for me for many others.   Disabled means not-able  but I think this word reaches far beyond the common definition.   American society lives in a make believe world, that is popular American culture, we like things that are shiny and new, ideas of perfection and when they no longer meet those demands, we simply throw those out in the trash.   We had only a temporary appreciation.   I had a cool spiritual confessor who was the real deal as far as Catholic Priests are concerned, a down to earth person who understood the organic teachings of Jesus and when I say organic that means the very raw teachings, not the fluffed or misdirected teachings we hear from the pulpit today.

Anyhow he commented that he had never seen such suffering in a person than myself as my suffering went well beyond the current struggles I was facing.  I was deeply entrenched in a situation that nobody could get me out of (being sick) and faced multiple struggles such as losing a business, financial struggles, ridicule from many people and the psychological stress that these events perpetrate.     I was deeply entrenched in my Lord at the time spending considerable time in contemplative prayer as I was considering a vocation in the church.   We talked about suffering in general and in terms of faith.   Inevitably we discussed the American mentality of entitlement, how in many parts of the world people suffer at the hands of oppressive governments, famines, disease and the like, yet we have no perspective of this in our sheltered American life.   With  entitlement comes greed, avarice and dissatisfaction with things that we are privileged to have, but I suppose that comes from perspective.  Entitlement kills our spiritual life since we no longer foster appreciation or value anything, an exploitation of sorts.

Everyone is disabled to some degree.  I was naive in my younger days,  I believed most of the external things that others excreted while only seeing the deficits in my own life but I suppose that I am not the only person who sees that or feels that pain of imperfection.   I personally believe that most see the deficits within while hiding those thoughts from others for fear of ridicule.  This is a form of bondage.   I have learned that having defects is part of the human experience, I am comfortable with my humanity -it takes courage to admit that.

A disability is like a pruned tree.  The tree cannot grow upwards like it once did but instead it finds new growth.  Disabilities can disable you but disabilities can force growth where there was no growth.    I am both weak and strong an anomaly of sorts, as with disability comes great strength that must protect the vulnerability.   Embracing our weaknesses makes us stronger.

(if you find yourself in a bad situation and need some encouragement, please let me know)